When You Feel Far From Who You Were
Aug 30, 2025 1:01 pm
You can never step into the same river twice.
Same location, looks the same - but it's not the same river. You're never the same either.
People come to me feeling disconnected, numb, far from who they used to be. They want to recreate some past version of themselves when they felt "dialed in."
Here's what I tell them: Don't try to recreate your life.
Maybe three years ago you were waking up at 2:52AM every day, in bed by 6:30 PM, no TV, no energy waste. Firing on all cylinders like a V12 F1 race car that didn't need maintenance. Lifting seven days a week.
That was then. This is now.
There may be aspects of that version you feel pulled to get back to - that's fine. But you'll never be exactly who you used to be.
Instead of trying to replicate, extract. Look at GSP - take that from his game. Look at Khabib - take that. Look at past you - keep that. Look at Connor - add that to your game.
It's not imitation. It's recognition: "I knew that was in me. Now I see how to channel it."
The numbness you feel isn't a flaw. It's a signal for change.
We all must touch rock bottom. Must go to the depths of hell. Then you see that in yourself, you realize you can change your states of being.
Your vibrational frequency. Your mood. Your appendage point.
You have the power to be aware of your thinking, feeling, and acting. When you harness responsibility for being the author of your story, you understand something most people miss:
You're so much more intelligent than the self-centered thinker. But that thinker still has value.
Non-duality is bullshit, and yet it's the truest thing there is.
Contradiction is precision. The realist king is always king of nothing.
When you entertain weakness, when you notice numbness suffocating you - can you be honest about why you feel how you feel? What your relationships are? What your life has become?
You don't need to be perfect. You need to be honest.
Regret is consciousness showing you: "What if I didn't waste energy on that thing?" Then I wouldn't have this regret energy perpetuating.
You'll still do things you regret. You'll see something, regret it, stop doing it, be in harmony. Then somehow life will get you again.
Nothing wrong with that. Can you learn?
Don't be naive. Don't be arrogant. But can you learn?
You don't have all the answers, but you have the power to get answers from yourself. Not your ego, your identity - your openness to surrender and realize you don't have the answers.
That's how you let yourself be guided. Moving with a current you didn't create. Riding the golden wave.
You align thoughts, actions, emotions. You notice weakness. You feel the space or lack of space in your being.
Coming back to yourself isn't about returning to who you were. It's about integrating who you've become with the essence of what you've always been.
The river keeps flowing. You keep changing. The current remains constant.
If you're ready to stop trying to recreate the past and start integrating what you actually are right now, reach out. I work with people who understand that transformation isn't about going backward.
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It's about moving forward with everything you've learned.
Justin