#34–What the Ghost of Misplaced Shame wants you to believe
Yesterday I was approached by a recruiter: did I want to interview for a corporate trainer role at a maritime logistics company?
Sure, I said. It seemed to loosely fall in my wheelhouse.
Today, after receiving my info, the company sent me two assessments to complete before I could move forward in the process. I was excited.
Then I opened the assessments.
One seemed ok: to write an email.
But the other was a 35-minute Excel test, with 30 questions, some of which contained expressions such as "sparkline" or "pivot tables."
Completing the assessment took me through different phases:
- hand-wringing curiosity – ok, let me see what this is...
- surprise – ooh, I didn't know a spreadsheet could do those things
- (holier than thou) indignation – who do they think I am?
- pure anger – this is stupid!
- foggy-brain boredom – err...
- defeat – skip, skip, skip, submit!
Afterwards, I emailed the recruiter telling her I didn't think I'd pass the test, sorry (I know she'd get her commission if I were to be hired).
What surprised me, though, was that I didn't feel any sort of shame or not-enough-ness. Nor did the moral superiority I'd felt in phase 3 stayed with me.
I don't know Excel–so what?
This absence of shame is today's victory over the Ghost of Misplaced Shame, one step closer towards liberation.
The GoMS wants me to feel inadequate because I dared applying for a job as a Corporate Trainer even though I didn't know Excel??? That's inadmissible, the Ghost says.
In the past, I'd have listened.
Today, I respond differently:
"Dear GoMS: in my land, Corporate Trainers don't need to master Excel, and if they do, they learn on the job."
What victories have you had over your GoMS?
Love,
Carolina
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