#145 – Wanting or inspiration, which feels truer?

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A few days before I turned the lights off in my coaching practice, I attended a group call with a business coach who helps female entrepreneurs create wealth – I'd paid her a hefty sum to do that.

When it was my turn to share my struggle with making the sum I'd declared as my goal, she asked me what I wanted the money for. Like a broken record, I parroted my spiel about my "high dream:" a house in Portugal, sipping espresso by the pool, blah blah blah – the espresso part is still true.

Without looking at me, she said, "I don't believe you." She said that something in my voice told her I didn't want that money; she asked me why.

In the moment I was offended, hurt. I thought she was cruel and lacked empathy because, woe was I and poor me.

Now I see she was spot on.

My true internal desire was not about money or a house or lavish travel. My only true desire was (is) to write.

Writing is what I'm inspired to do, what moves me. Money is something I need because modern society makes it a requirement (you know, groceries, the electricity bill, clothes...).

If I thought I desired money it was because my Ego had bought into the "culture of want." Inside my mind, my Ego was making inflammatory speeches about how crucial it is to want in order to be a successful, strong, powerful woman. "Know what you want!" "Ask for what you want!" "Don't let others decide what you want," etcetera.

Today I think inspiration is where it's at.

What are you inspired to do/think/say/feel/write?

Love,

Carolina