#267 – What part of you insists on suffering?

Trying to answer this simple question will change everything in your experience.

Yesterday, after listening to Michael A. Singer's book, The Untethered Soul, I attempted to answer this question in earnest for the first time.

I'd heard it many times and even written about similar topics. But I'd never tried to answer it myself.

Here's what happened: before starting my shift at my coffee-machine demo station, I stopped at a nearby supermarket to get sugar. When I exited, it was pouring (which, in Miami is serious business).

I went back to buy a poncho and pondered: do I wait until it stops or walk the half-mile under the rain? I chose the latter.

My feet and lower part of my pants got soaked in seconds and I "decided" it was going to be a terrible day.

Then I asked myself the question: "what part of me insists on suffering?" and what I experienced next was magical.

I sensed a detachment in my mind, like an untangling. Something inside was taking a step back to look at "the part" that was suffering.

That something was my Self. And the part I was looking at was the Ego, its fists clenched and face red.

The Ego was whining, "it's going to be a terrible day, and six hours in soaking shoes is going to kill you, you're gonna need to buy some shoes, what an expensive day of work, blah blah blah blah."

It was trying to blame me for not knowing it was going to rain, not having brought an umbrella and a change of shoes. For being a loser with such a lowly job.

But I, looking at it, was okay. Perfectly fine. Even smiling a little because the Ego is so fragile.

But I'm not, and I can handle this––all of it.

What can you handle that your Ego can't?

Love,

Carolina