#348 – How do you relate to time?

Are you enslaved to time? Do you feel like it slips through your fingers while you're running around trying to achieve and accomplish and do and... survive? Do you sometimes feel you're "wasting" it in an unfulfilling life?

This morning, coming back after a 35-minute run on the beach-walk and a 20-minute weight-lifting session, I noticed my pace was uncharacteristically slow. It felt... peaceful. Inside.

Why am I not rushing back home to get ready to work, etcetera?, I wondered.

In the corner of my eye, I glimpsed a ghastly figure, tapping its wrist with two fingers and then shrugging and shaking its head, like asking me, "what are you doing?"

Ah! The Ghost of Time Indifference! A lifelong companion. I'd known it since I was very little and my father, like the Mad Hatter, always feared being late (although he never learned to calculate how long it'd take him before he got out the door).

Since I was consistently told I was too slow––eating, getting dressed, doing homework, walking to the school bus stop.

Since I feared missing out on business and life if I didn't cram all the activities I wanted done into my schedule––and actually had a filled-to-the-brim schedule.

So, today, this spontaneous rebellion against the Ghost came as a surprise. I took pleasure in every step, just looking around, breathing. I smiled, inside and outside.

The Ghost wants you to think you have all the time in the world. But then when you take all the time you want, it tells you you're wasting it. The Ghost makes you believe it can help you by taking charge of your time.

But today I realized I am in charge because I make my time. Time has nothing to do with me; it doesn't own me and I don't need to chase it.

What's your version of standing up to the Ghost of Time Indifference?

Love,

Carolina