#460 – What do you hope for when you blow your life out?

When life feels monotonous and too "normal," some people freak out––is that it? we ask ourselves.

On a recent evening walk near the beach, where the new trend is rollerblading, an unsettling thought crossed my mind: how exciting if that tall man (who looked like this was his first day on rollerblades) crashed on that downward slope and then ambulances and firefighters and OMG what happened, crowd around him, concerned faces, blood mixed with mud, are you ok, are you ok?

Of course, I didn't want anyone to suffer, I just thought that a little disruption to my evening would make me feel more alive, maybe?

I immediately knew what was causing the thought: the Ghost of Stability Boredom, the very face of ennui. Is that it?

Thankfully, nothing happened to the skater, and so the ghost kept tugging at my sleeve––how will you shake things up? I see you're bored!

I could cause some drama at my job, creating unnecessary difficulty. Or I could move to a different state! Bingo! That would cause disruption big time.

But yesterday things took an unexpected turn: my son was offered a job here, so, no need to move. Plus, if we wanted to move, there'd be no drama involved either––just a $125 fee to transfer my son's court-mandated supervision.

That made me feel odd. Was I allowed to be at peace? What about the drama, the outrage, the hardship? Was it possible that there was none?

Then, I remembered: "Peace is this moment without judgment." (Dorothy S. Hunt).

What if boredom is where peace begins?

Love,

Carolina