, I didn't take the concept of deep emotional wounds seriously until the past few weeks.

You see, after my mum's burial, I decided just to move on and resume work as usual…

But for reasons I didn't know then, I could not.

I would wake up and try to will myself to work but all my efforts would end in futility.

I could hardly write an email…

Let alone send a client pitch.

At first, I shrugged it off and told myself that I needed some time to rest after the stressful burial preparations and get used to my systems again.

Well , guess what?...

Days went by and I still didn't do anything.

But, that wasn't enough to convince me that something was wrong…

A few days after the burial, I started having fits of depression.

I would be watching a movie (instead of working)...

And I would get a bit sad...

And if I was enjoying the movie, I would suddenly stop getting any fun from the movie.

I tried to change this by taking two cups of coffee as opposed to my usual one cup.

Well, guess what, it still didn't stop.

Now I'm sure you'd feel this should be enough to convince me that I need to seek help…

But I didn't.

Until 4 days ago, I started feeling feverish at certain intervals…

And finally fell terribly ill on Wednesday.

I couldn't sleep, walk or eat.

The pain and fever I experienced was almost unbearable.

I felt pains everywhere…

My head, my chest, my back, my waist, my legs all hurt like hell.

I couldn't even speak.

, let me tell you something crazy...

On the first day, I thought I was going to die. 

I had to struggle to take my meds and have my bath because I was afraid that if I didn't…

I would sleep and not wake up.

It was that bad.

Anyway, when I started feeling a bit better…

My ad specialist reached out on WhatsApp to remind me of an ad creative we had planned to shoot for an upcoming ad.

I told her I was convalescing, and she exclaimed.

Turns out I told her when I was sick before the burial so we could postpone the ad.

She then told me to find a way to get strong emotionally.

That she'd been in my shoes before…

Where her emotional stress started hampering her immune system making her prone to other diseases like Malaria.

Well, I took her advice and talked to someone elderly yesterday.

Told him how I felt about everything that has happened in the past few months up to the last few years since losing my dad.

Now, before I did this…

I had a severe headache that I thought was the side effect of the meds I had been placed on by my doctor…

But it turns out I have deep emotional wounds and mental stress that were triggered when I lost my mom and have been weighing me down.

Because , after sharing with and hearing from my mentor…

I woke up this morning with newfound energy and an enthusiasm to work.

I immediately started writing this to you and I've never felt so much joy letting my hands fly so freely.

I don't think I realized how much I missed doing my daily tasks….

Writing to you amongst all.

And I'm grateful that I am improving.

I even decided to gift myself a YAMAHA Keyboard by the end of October if I write to you every day from now till October 31st. (I've always wanted to learn to play the keyboard)

And I'm energized for that.

Let's see how it goes.

In the meantime, …

How have you beennnnnnnnnnnnn??

What have you been up to since I was awayyyyyyyyyyy??

Tell me pleaseeeeeeeeee!!

Stay jiggy 

Oxide 

PS: More than anything, I'm glad I can get back to my students, programs, and coaching sessions…

Because one of the painful parts of being unable to run them effectively…

Is knowing I am unavailable to share my wisdom and guidance with them.

I'm glad I'm better.