Hello ,

I hope you're well.

As you can see I've been running my Meetup group (Sort YourSelf Out) for 42 months, I've held 74 events, had 2,418 RSVPS, and have 1,631 members.

It's been brilliant.

Last night was my final meeting (and if you were there then thank you!)

I've stopped doing it. I enjoy it and I know that it has helped many people and that people find the meeting useful.

So why not continue? Because it doesn't excite me. I want to turn up to that meeting excited. As I said I enjoy it because I love interacting with the members (you perhaps?) and I've really enjoyed the relationships that have formed as a result.

But the thought of running it no longer excites me so I've decided to stop.

I want to be excited about what I do in my life. I appreciate that not everything we do can be exciting all the time. I've yet once to get excited at the prospect of vacuuming the house, no matter how much reframing I do (I get to hoover the house today rather than I have to hoover the house today, etc.)

There are things that I do that are necessary, but I do find them exciting. My therapy and coaching work excites me. Helping people excites me.

Working at Alpkit at weekends excites me.

My weekly radio show excites me (that's me looking excited. Really).

As I've mentioned before I'm finding this space between closing one door and opening another challenging. Why? Because I haven't discovered the next door yet.

We like security, we like certainty and I don't have those things. Perhaps I never will and I just need to become more comfortable with being uncomfortable. Maybe that's the lesson. I don't know. I'll let you know when I do.

I know that it's alright to be uncertain, to be unsure, to not know. I've been through this before and I'll go through it again many times. It's me, but also perhaps it's simply a part of being human.

Of course, it's also about fear because fear is ever present. It's easy to not acknowledge fear, but it's usually lurking nearby waiting to undermine, to keep you where you are. It's not an external thing, of course, it's our fear that's within us. It's a fear about something.

Finding out what that specific fear is is very helpful. Identify it, acknowledge it and lessen its power. It may not go away, but it doesn't have to keep you stuck or not knowing what step to take.

The thing is I'm not stuck. I'm just not moving because I haven't taken a step in any particular direction. Stopping doing something I know doesn't excite me clears my path a little, but if I don't take steps I know I'm going nowhere.

It's always about taking action.

Regards,

Brooke