Yesterday evening,

I was out there doing one of the things I love doing best "Writing"

However, I was asked to prepare some things for our email setup and one of it is a welcome email (I got an internship with one of the best photography brand, Optical Illusion Media, OIM, story on how I got it will be sent to you someday)

IF YOU DON'T AGREE, GO TO COURT!

After writing, making tweaks here and there, I finally submitted to the group so the team members could critique it and all. 

Few minutes after sending it in, someone in the group (let's say her name is Jane) tagged our boss and said "why does this feel very familiar?"

Jane said the write-up I wrote feels very familiar

I tried to justify myself as much as possible because what I did with the write-up was "an original".

And that email really captured the dramatic Tomi, if you would love to see it, let me know.

Then after a while, I stopped justifying myself, left the write-up for my boss and others to decide whether it was worth it or not and went into my boss' DM.

At this point, the stubborn part of my inferiority complex that still remains in hiding shot up and I chose to not do anything about it

Why?

Because my pride was hurt

After telling him how I felt and ended it with...

"This is why I don't really like majority of the people reading my work, blah blah blah"

He didn't say sorry or make me feel better or scold Jane for me…

Instead he said, "good, keep writing"

And that was my wake up call, that made me realize that I'm starting to feel threatened.

He could have pampered me and said soothing words that I wanted to hear

But instead, he made realize that

"When people say something about a thing you're doing, whether good or bad, that means you're doing something alright"

"And you have the power to choose whether to let the negative words get to you or let them teach you a lesson and then improve." 

We all know good words make the heart merry. 

Dear one, we have all being in this situation before and we will still face it whether we like it or not

But whatever way you choose to handle it will determine if you will come out of it alive, unscathed or extremely bad. 

Here are things I did wrongly yesterday evening:

Yes, I do this a lot. I sit down and have a real true talk with myself. It gives me clarity. It helps me reflect a lot on everything and then makes me a better person because if it is bad, I won't do it again… If it is good, I double down on it. You should try it as well. 

• I allowed a bit of inferiority complex show me shege
• I made her win by justifying myself when I could have not said nothing and rather say to myself "that's her opinion, Jesutofunmi"
• I felt that what I wrote was wrong, underrated and familiar, that is I allowed her words seep into my soul and make me feel bad

However, thank God for my boss, he quickly called me to order…

Commended that I've done a good work and even said "this part is doing me like I should wife you"

wanna know the part, shoot me a reply and I will tell you.

And do you know what else I did to stop feeling that way?

I talked to the Holy Spirit.

I didn't pray fervently, I simply talked to Him

Did He help me out? Of course

And did I stop feeling bad? Obviously.

Now,

I'm not telling you these things just for mere saying…

I'm relaying my experience to you so that you can pick 1 or 2 and apply it where you deem fit. 

I've been sent and I've delivered.

I'm going back to bed, I didn't sleep during the night until 4 or thereabout and I was up by 6.

So, do enjoy the day love and remember

"You're more than enough"

"You're a badass"

"Inferiority complex might Come some days, like it did me but you have the power to choose and make the best of it"

"You're doing excellently well, if you're doing anything at all"

Jesutofunmi.

P. S.: Trust in the Lord with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding. Seek His will in all you do, and He will show you which path to take (Proverbs 3:5-6)