I'm so tired of holding it all together

Jul 08, 2025 1:01 pm

There's a type of fatigue that doesn't show up in your muscles. It shows up in the pause before you open your laptop, in the way you take a breath before unmuting on Zoom, in that tension behind your professional smile. It’s not exhaustion from work; it’s exhaustion from **holding**.


Holding it together. Holding up appearances. Holding space for everyone else. Holding back your real thoughts so you don’t become "too much." Eventually, holding becomes your default mode. You don't even notice it anymore, until your jaw won't unclench, until your stomach stays tight, until your words feel robotic—like they're coming from someone who just wants to be left alone for a week. This isn't burnout; this is **pre-collapse**. It's what your body does when it's carrying more than it was designed to—emotionally, mentally, energetically.


And the worst part? You're so good at functioning that nobody sees it. They think you've got it handled. They compliment your capacity. They lean on you. But inside? You're running on fumes and willpower, not joy or ease. The solution isn't a vacation. It's **permission** to stop operating from emotional armor and start living from actual **alignment**. That means you stop suppressing to perform. You learn to rest without guilt. You dissolve the nervous system tension that's creating internal pressure. You start living from choice instead of compensation. The part of you that’s been holding it all together isn’t weak—it’s **tired**. And the most courageous thing you can do is stop pretending that tension is necessary.


Reply "**take back control**" and I’ll break down how to release the pressure you've been silently carrying so you can lead, breathe, and live without the constant emotional bracing.

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