After him confessing to me about the betrayal, I cried in the toilet…
This happened last 2019 and I was just 8 months postpartum.
LDR kami kasi pulis sya at still ongoing training.
That’s when my self-esteem went downhill --- asked myself kung ano bang naging mga pagkukulang ko to deserve the betrayal, thinking kung dahil lang ba talaga sa sex kasi nga CS ako at di na nakakapag perform well on bed like I used to.
Syempre, dahil di pa fully healed ang tahi ko.
So I wondered kung sino ba talaga yung naka sex nya.
Pero pinatawad ko sya agad and we kept the betrayal secret kasi I was thinking to start anew with him.
Based din sa story nya, one-night stand lang daw ang nangyari.
So for the next 3 months halos ikabaliw ko ang pagiging detective just to find anything. Wala nga kasi akong identity ng girl at wala rin akong makuhang information sa kanya.
Kaya nung may kalandian syang babae sa chat at based on their convo ay nang aaya syang makipagkita…
At dahil naging judgmental na ako due to my emotions... di na ako nakapag tiis.
Gamit mismo ang own account nya which I can access, inaway ko ang babae.
Syempre, deleted na nya ang convo nung ako na ang nakipag chat sa babae.
Imagine me witnessing their convo using his very own account in an LDR set up.
Nanginginig sa galit at nakikitang almost every response ay burado para walang bakas ng emotional cheating.
Once he realized I was using his account to throw my anger and frustration sa babaeng di ko naman kilala at di ko naman confirmed na karelasyon nya…
… he got mad.
Mas masakit yung galit na galit sya and feeling ko protected nya pa ang babae compared sa akin.
Yung on the spot mo na nakikitang may kalandian pero his excuse is... it’s just a friendly talk for earning connections and friendship.
Kaya nagdilim na talaga ang paningin ko ng gabing yun habang nanginginig sa galit.
Di ko na rin maintindihan kung ano na ba ang dapat kong maramdaman.
Yung 3 months kong pananahimik, depression and anxiety ay gustong kumawala.
So I wanted to find a way around to ease the mixed emotions I’m feeling.
Started to reach out our eldest sister and told her about the betrayal para kapag natuloy ang pinaplano kong suicide ay alam ng family ko ang puno’t dulo ng lahat.
Sabog na sabog ang utak at puso ko ng mga panahong yun.
To cut the story short, I went home to my family with my baby coz I felt like if I’ll stay longer, magagawa ko na talagang magpaka matay.
Feeling ko kasi wala naman nakakaintindi sa akin kasi lahat ng nasa paligid ko ay pamilya nya.
So I wanted to find a safe space for my mental health and look for ways to bounce back.
In my search for Healing After Cheating, I found God’s words so comforting…
…read and studied God’s words deeper…
…studied God’s design and principles to building Godly, Healthy and Sexy relationships and marriages…
And then stumbled upon an eBook making course.
I enrolled to the course kahit sobrang mahal non for me. (30k plus).
Pinag ipunan ko kasi naturally, mahilig talaga akong magsulat at pangarap kong maging isang AUTHOR.
Fortunately, I found a mentor who didn’t only help me with realizing my college dream of publishing my writings.
Coz the same passion also helped shape my financial, emotional and social mindset.
And that’s how I started founding Godly Builders.
Now since 2020, after I first released my first eBook, I saw the inner transformation to the lives of Depressed Cheated Women whom I serve.
I realized how important is the SAFE SPACE which I also longed before in shaping the mindset, emotions and confidence of these women like I was for their ultimate peace of mind and inner joy.
And that’s how I consider our Godly Builders Fam golden.
At dahil pa ulit2x lang din ang mga questions nila and I didn’t have enough time dahil isa rin akong Nanay and working mom…
I thought of a solution for their faster growth.
Yung iba kasi ilang months na sa loob ng GB Fam, di pa natatapos basahin ang eBook na binili nila. LOL
And that’s when I crafted the personal Healing After Cheating Course.
My goal was to share deeper, in a video format, my secret sauce to healing. At para kahit busy mom ay may panahon for learning while just plugging their earphones.
You see...
As I grow with them, I further developed the knowledge, understanding and wisdom in helping them.
I felt so ready to share to the world a step-by-step method that worked for me so they can SAVE TIME in crying and overthinking.
And that’s why I have opened up our HAC Membership Program.
So if you’d love to learn more about how you can have rapid Healing After Cheating…
If you hate overthinking at gusto mong ma manage ang triggers mo without overwhelm…
If you want peace of mind badly para makapag focus na sa trabaho or sa pag manage ng home mo…
And if you’d love to be in a safe space without any judgment…
And if you’d love to be in a group of women na nakaka intindi sayo and whom you can learn from…
Reply “I WANT” to this email.
To your peace and joy,
FJ "Enjoying my Peace" Lapera
P.S. We're opening the enrollment for the HAC Membership Program this week until Marth 8th next week.
So if you're interested to fast track your #HealingAfterCheating journey for you to manage your overthinking, reply "I WANT" to this email.
I'll send you more details tomorrow on how to enroll.
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