When I read this message, it pierced my heart.
Here's what our new email subscriber just told me last Thursday:
Hi Ms FJ.. I have been a silent follower of you and I cant even remember how it happened. But needless to say, your posts and advices really helps me a lot. And yes, God really works in miraculous ways. Yung alam mo na may hindi tama na nagyayari and you always turned to Him and talked to him for strength and guidance. And of course, He is a Fair and Righteous God. He knows when is the right time to be revealed. And hindi lang to nangyari just once.. but many times over when I can feel that my husband cheated.
I had been cheated by my husband for the first time 9 yrs ago.. to make things short sa haba ng panahon and ang dami ng nangyari..
I forgave him every time I caught him.. been together for the sake of my 4 children.. And yes, I had felt all the hurts, pains, self pity, depression, suicidal feelings, and even monetary loses because I cant focus well on my work… But thanks be to God, I am always back on my feet, continued my life as if nothing happened..
cgro thankful na din ako that I had been brought up in a devout Catholic school and I have that deep faith in my heart had always been my foothold. I also came from a broken family, where my father cheated time and again with my mother. I never imagined that I too will experience this. Na magiging martyr and tanga-tangahan and manhid kung minsan..
Every time we try to mend and compromise, I know I dont fully trust my husband.. That my mind reminds me that I have to protect my heart and sanity. I always told my self to somehow distance and not fall with the trap of fully trusting my heart to him again…
Nangyari na naman today…he accidentally sent a message to me while we are texting.. a message which is for his “luv” and not to me his “hon”…
I thought I am somewhat ready because I can feel his attitude changed before this. Parang paranoid ka na pero hindi eh.
You can feel and know that your intuition tells you otherwise. I thought I would not feel the pain, but it still hurts… pagod na lang cgro ako, because now I did not nagged and shouted at him.. did not talked to anyone even my mother…
I want to swallow the hurt and pain of going all through this again.. I want to calm myself and think of better ways to take revenge..
Yes I want to make revenge silently.. to plan things out carefully and no going back.. I really wanted to be free and be at peace with me and my children Ms FJ, but I really dont know where to start 
Final na talaga.. I really want to give up on our marriage..
I don’t want to add another burden.. another struggle with my life…
Ang sakit pakinggan ano?
Pero mas masakit para sa isang Nanay kapag nakikita ng nasasaktan ang anak nya.
Just what I have experienced in this video.
And if you ever felt any ounce of similarity, please know that I'm basically sharing her story and my hidden story for you to know na di ka nag iisa.
Coz when the kids of the broken parents grow up not healing their inner child, they'd produce double the trouble.
And the damage would be costly in the long run.
That's why it's important to choose your hard best.
Either the hard way of standing for your own truth if your husband isn't really committed in winning you back and choosing your solo battle or...
The hard way of staying para buo ang pamilya pero unti2x naman pinapatay ang pagka babae mo and pati future ng mga anak mo or...
Choosing the hard way of being patient sa husband mo para sa kanyang pagbabago coz you simply believe that he can. :)
Bawat path after experiencing the pain of betrayal has the pros and cons.
That's why you needed to choose your battle well.
And remember, whatever path you choose, what's important is the discernment to choose kung ano ang applicable sa case mo and... kung ano ang instruction ni Lord sayo.
Most importantly, God's instruction to you is always the BEST for you.
There could be struggles along the way and storms you need to overcome but in the end... there's so much peace and... JOY. :)
Now I have this very important question for you...
What is PEACE and JOY for you ???
To your peace and joy,
FJ Lapera
P.S. Have you watched how painful my son's video is? This basically stole my peace and joy back then. And now that I got his full custody, what's peaceful for me is I can educate him best of the Godly, Healthy and Sexy principles to healing and even forgiving everyone who have hurt him... even at school.
Watch our old video here if you haven't yet.
I hope through this video, you can think of turning your pain to a powerful purpose too.
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