Today's email is more like a journal entry.

I am struggling with something right now. I wanted to write it here, instead of in my journal, in hopes it may help you too.

I am both blessed and cursed.

I have an insatiable need to get the most out of life while I have the chance.

While this can be great when things are flying high, it is very easy to become paralyzed by all the options for the potential lives I "could" live.

Currently, I am going through a phase where I am re-evaluating my life today, my "lives" of past, and my potential "lives" of the future.

And while examining one of my past lives as an adventurous competitive athlete, I am starting to realize that I lost myself in chasing a future life that I don't necessarily align with.

I have always loved sports, exercise, and being outside.

I have never loved sitting still, spending long periods of time at a desk, and remaining inside all day.

Yet, why did I do that in the corporate world? And then why did I become fixated on becoming an "entrepreneur" that would tell himself he must sacrifice his loves so that he can attain some fictitious future life?

Why not become an entrepreneur that is focused on being outside? One that creates a world where sports/exercise build him wealth? And a lifestyle where he can take regular adventures that most other people are too scared to take?

I am now aligning my actions to answer that why.

This past weekend I celebrated the grand re-opening (the facility was upgraded) of MSW Nutrition, a health lounge / nutrition company, as well as the new part of it... How Do You Health (podcast studio and management services) in which I am partnered. I will be working hard to bring HEALTH education to as many eyes and ears across the world as possible.

I am also competing in the "world series of Fitness" HYROX World competition in Dallas this weekend, as well as in ATX May 22nd. Training for this has reignited a flame in me that I wish I never let burn out before.

Also, I am doing my part to help my great friends Daniel and Lindsey Crouch to bring their health food product to market. Go checkout Blessed Bites (they taste amazing and are a SUPERFOOD that is packed with nutrients. I literally eat theme everyday).

Lastly, I have engrained myself in the Squatch Fitness community where I hope to continue to lead events that help people make new connections, earn competence in the health/wellness space, and grow a confidence within them to go out and help the world become a better place.

All in all, I am taking the actions to build the future the REAL ME wants. That doesn't mean it isn't fucking scary though. I am finally at the point where if I fail at the above, that would be me failing at the things I love most in this world. That is scaryyyy.

I was okay failing at the corporate path, it wasn't for me.

I was okay half-assing some of my entrepreneurial endeavors because they weren't for me.

But the above...it is FOR ME. And that type of pressure I think is something every human being can relate to.

You know deep down what your path is. But I guarantee you that you have second guessed taking it, because if you do go down that road, it will be bumpy, it will have some sharp turns, it will push you to the brink of your existence.

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But if you keep going, the journey will be more beautiful than you could ever dream.

I don't just say this, I wholeheartedly believe it. Most of the best occurrences in my life have all been because I chose to keep going down the road that was truest to my heart. This is why I must keep going. And I am here now to encourage you to do the same.

In essence, this email was a note to myself as to WHY I need to keep going. To fight off the demons that seem to be creeping in my mind lately. To remind myself how far I have actually gone down MY ROAD.

Today I will continue the journey.

Will you choose to come with me though?

#thriveon

CJ

p.s. today I am grateful for all the opportunities I have had in my life to get to where I am at on my road. They all add up. The good, the bad..the weird...they all make my story...my story. And I wouldn't want it any other way.