Hey Work Fun Nation,

Day 55 of my 90-Day AI Challenge: Why I Almost Deleted Everything

55 days of almost daily posts. (got sick and had some rest here and there)

55 days of building tools, testing frameworks, helping clients, documenting everything.

And this morning I woke up wanting to delete it all.

Not because it wasn't working. Several of the frameworks and prompts are now actively being used by people. Three more consultation requests came in this week.

I wanted to delete it because it was working too well. Nuks. But wait, let me explain.

Here's what nobody tells you about building in public: success creates pressure you didn't see coming.

When day 1 Shoden started posting about prompt experiments, zero people cared. Perfect. No pressure. Just me figuring things out.

But now people are watching. Messaging. Waiting for the next insight. Using the tools I build. Paying for consultations based on what I share here.

And suddenly this thing that started as personal accountability became a responsibility.

What if I share something wrong? What if tomorrow's post isn't as useful as today's? What if I run out of things worth saying?

The voice in my head this morning: "You should have kept this private. This was supposed to be for you."

Classic self-sabotage. The exact thing I wrote a whole book about, threatening to dismantle what I fought to build.

In this specific case, success triggers the part of our brain that says "this is too good to be true" and starts looking for exits.

I sat staring at my phone, finger hovering over the delete button for my entire challenge folder.

Then I remembered something Edison told me after we fixed his social media approach.

"Salamat brother. Hindi ko alam na pwede pala ganito ka-simple."

He wasn't thanking me for being perfect. He was thanking me for showing him something was possible.

That's when I realized that the people following this journey aren't here for polished expertise. They're here for honest exploration.

They don't need me to have all the answers. They need to see someone figuring it out in real time.

The value isn't in the perfection of what I'm building. It's in the permission to build imperfectly.

55 days in. Still here. Still building. Still sometimes wanting to quit.

Not today self-sabotage, not today. hehe

The difference between day 1 Shoden and day 55 Shoden isn't that I'm more confident.

It's that I'm more okay with being confused in public.

35 days left. Let's see what happens when you stop trying to be impressive and just keep being honest.

Shoden "35 Days to Go" San

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